Wednesday, July 13, 2011

What People Don't Tell You About the TWW

Today is 7dpiui (7 days post IUI) which means we're half way through the two week wait!

There are tons of ideas on the internet about how to survive the two week wait. You can: write in a journal (or blog), go to the movies, shop, go out to dinner, hang out with friends, clean, brainstorm baby names, garden, take the dogs for walks, read, etc. The goal is to find something you enjoy that will keep you busy (and sane).

While these activities make it sound as though the TWW is a joyous time, the truth is that the TWW is post ovulation limbo. It's hell. You try to tell yourself not to think about it, but it's useless. (consciously ignoring it actually forces you to think about it MORE!)

If you're like me, you'll assume the role of obsessor, analyzer, researcher, and comedian. You'll spend 90% of your free time googling cervical mucus, implantation bleeding, and signs of early pregnancy. The other 10% will be spent questioning your partner about how she is feeling (desperately hoping for another "symptom" to research!) You'll also want to take care of her. After all, she could be carrying your child.

If you are the one who is lucky enough to have had the pleasure of a speculum inserted inside you, you'll most likely become a hormonal mess (pregnant or not). You'll cry over the smallest things and laugh 3 seconds later. You'll become obsessed with the idea of taking a HPT. You'll look at the toilet paper after wiping (secretly hoping to see a sign of implantation bleeding). You'll start checking out clothes in the maternity section (even if just from a distance). You'll feel your boobs throughout the day to see if they are tender and stop at nothing to convince yourself that every cramp, pain, or twinge is a sign that you are pregnant.

Not my Megan, though. She's so afraid to get her hopes up again that she has actually convinced herself that she is not pregnant. (She's even trying to justify the brown CM she saw yesterday...gross, I know).

I don't blame her though. The TWW is an emotional roller coaster with potential for devastation. Just remember that "It is better to have tried and failed than to have never tried at all."

Baby Dust!

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